Basically New York

When I first moved to new york I thought, wow everyone moves so quickly, why are people so busy? The I realized it’s because everyone is desperately chasing their dreams. Once people slowed down I came to see that people were actually really nice.

– My Boss

Real Talk

The very first job “real person” job I ever had was at Sirius XM Radio, and I absolutely hated it. The only thing that kept me from crying myself to sleep every night was the fact that I only had to work from noon-5 p.m. 

When you’re doing something you hate, not even hate but don’t like, not even don’t like, but are indifferent to. Have no feelings for, it’s truly exhausting. To wake up every day knowing that you have something inside you that’s not being put to use, being wasted, dying, it’s truly exhausting. It’s tiring, it hurts. When you wake up, what to you have to look forward to? When you get dressed and leave the house, what are you looking forward to? When you get to your job, what to you have to look forward to? When you head home at night…the same thing everyday.

This is the definition of unhappiness.

You wonder why people around you don’t feel like going out to dinner, meeting you for drinks after work, don’t feel like talking to you on the phone, don’t want to go out on weekends, can’t be convinced to go see that new art exhibit with you. Sit around watching TV all day, spend all their money on alcohol and clothes, take drugs whenever they can. They are like hamsters on a wheel.

When you can’t express yourself, when you are forced to suppress you, forced to suppress YOU, as a person. YOU, and you have to conform to some new normal, to some new life. When you understand this concept, and you see it in action, and you’ve experienced it, that’s when you understand unhappiness. That’s when you understand unhappiness and how important it is to spend every second, of every day of the rest of your life chasing it. 

When you can finally wake up in the morning, not tired or hungover or broke, just wake up and be excited to get out of bed in the morning, that’s when you know you’ve found it.

 

Baby my whole life has changed

If you don’t recognize that above lyric from the hit maker ginuwine, then we can’t be friends.

But really, it has. I live in New York, I have my own apartment and a new job…Did I not mention the job before? Yea. I don’t mean to sound ungrateful, in fact I really don’t want to come across that way. I was walking back from brunch the other day with my friend (I know gag me with a spoon) and I saw a homeless man pooping on the side of the street, I could literally smell it from a block away. So yes, I don’t want to sound ungrateful. It’s great that I have a job! Super. Granted its another temp position, but it’s for 8 weeks so it feels like something steady.

I digress.

I have a job, a new apartment, so I guess you could say, my whole life has changed.

Anyways, I gotta go to work…

What people say vs. what they mean

Since becoming a real adult – aka moving out of my parents house. I’ve learned a lot about life, specifically about the little white lies they tell about their lives to make it seem like they are doing more than they actually are (I do it all the time)

Por ejemplo

What I say to my family when they ask what I’m doing in New York – ” I’m working with a promotions company and am currently on a six month assignment”

What I actually do –  “For four hours a day 3-5 times a week I pass out stickers to children and watch sports”

More ejemplos

  • I do freelance work
  • I’ve worked on two projects in the last three months and therefore consider myself a freelance artists
  • I have like noooo money
  • I have enough money to go out Thursday, Friday and Saturday but can’t participate in Sunday funday and can only buy one new shirt when we go shopping
  • I totally hate my job, I’m looking for a new one
  • I hate my job but I don’t hate my salary, I’m just going to keep complaining about it and talk about how I have no time to find a new one
  • I would totally hang out but I’m so busy!
  • I have like three new episodes of shahs of sunset on my DVR and two new episodes of Love & Hip-Hop on-demand soooo that’s kind of more important
  • I just have no energy, I’m so drained
  • Re:

Temping in the city week 2.5

Another day another $10/hour.

I have now moved on to working as a receptionist at a real estate company. Said real estate company provides employees who request free housing. We all know where I’ll be trying to wiggle my way into.

But seriously, these people have some big bucks. The office is located in a very nice, very exclusive and trendy part of Manhattan [and a convenient 10 minute commute from my apartment] and unfortunately for me they are not looking for new hires, but anyways — moving on.

While on the job I’ve compiled a list of things I do and don’t enjoy .

  • I do enjoy the fact that I don’t need to follow traditional office dress rules
  • If I screw up it doesn’t matter…I don’t work there
  • I don’t enjoy that the person who hired me to temp, doesn’t even know who I am
  • The lunch possibilities are endless – Pinkberry delivers
  • I get to participate in all the office gossip with none of the guilt or nervousness associated with consequences of adding my two cents
  • I enjoy getting a pacycheck
  • I don’t enjoy how small it is
  • I like structure
  • But then again I don’t. I haven’t gotten a chance to marathon Breaking Bad in soooo long

All in all I would say things are going pretty good. I’m not tied down, I still have time to work on my site, It’s a pretty good life.

However; I still don’t have benefits.

 

Temping in the city, Day 1

So obviously city life is not, has not (probably will not) ever be as glamorous as I imagined.

Cocktails, cocktail parties and yes cocktail dresses cost money and I sir do not have any income, which had led me to temping aka my equivalent of a get rich (get enough money to pay bills) scheme.

Last week I had the displeasure of working at a law firm for the day, for dignity purpose lets say it rhymed it park & caslapus. These were the jankiest, worst dressed, illest mannered people I’ve ever seen in a professional environment. After hearing one of the paralegals refer to her boss as an “asshole” “douchebag” “idiot” and declaring that he was a “lazy piece of shit” and that “she could run the company much better than he could*”  I decided it was time to head for a lunchtime shopping spree. I found myself in H&M after fighting my way through the thick smog of nuts4nuts and ended up purchasing a simple pair of white, fuzzy mittens.

Sidenote: Does anyone else prefer mittens to gloves? I feel like when you wear gloves your fingers aren’t able to share the warmth that the other one offers and therefore not as superior.

Came back to the office to hear a fight. A legitimate fight going on between the associates, after a few “fucks” and “assholes” were thrown around I was offered a position as their new receptionist. I declined and this morning begin a new temp position at a real estate position…details to come Friday.

 

* Don’t you hate/wonder when people say “oh yea I came in and totally reworked this place, it runs much better because of me- I could do this job 10x better than the boss” Then why aren’t you the boss? better yet why haven’t you made partner? If you’re so much smarter/more organized/better than your boss then whyyyy are you still answering phones? Exactly.

Outflow

What do you do when faced with earth-shattering, soul-shaking, life-altering quarter life crisis?

You start a business.

The summer after graduation, I moved back home, did some serious soul searching and came up with an idea. Applying for jobs is like, insufferable and it’s even worse when you hate your job. Unfortunately for us, meaning us 20-somethings,  there is a lot of this type of thing going on. You have to take a job because you need the money, or you ended up majoring in something you weren’t too passionate about from the get go because your parents thought it would land you a big money position, only to find out you’d rather shake coins on the street than work another day at your position.

This is the point of Outflow

A mentor-mentee website. The point for me was to try and create something where people, all walks of people, whether your in high-school, college, entry level or even retired to get connected. You can give someone in high school advice on college, or help out a post-grad figure out how to make a good first impression during an interview. If you’re looking to make a change in your career, or get a promotion or whatever it may be, it’s always easier to make that change if you have someone to guide you.

Now before you roll your eyes and think, hey, I don’t know anyone, I have no connections and I have no time to help others.

  • Firstly, don’t be lazy. It takes 2 minutes to write a sentence, a word of encouragement to someone else
  • Secondly, don’t underestimate yourself or downplay your experiences. Have you been to college? Been on an interview? Fired? Unemployed? yea these are all things that everyone will go through at one point and that you can help someone through.
  • And lastly, have you ever heard of karma? Yea, don’t be a douche, help someone out and you’d be surprised at what begins to happen in your life.

 

xoxo

Go Outflow!

P.S. In case you haven’t noticed any of the links I’ve been dropping to the site- Here you go

All I want to do is make enough money to a buy a song on iTunes every once in awhile